The only thing I need is the only thing I cannot have.
Like an addict, I am forever bound to a disease I have created for myself.
I shake in the morning, and I can never lose the fear.
Of being stuck in the same rut my entire life,
Becoming attached to individuals who will only make me hate myself in the end.
Serves me right for thinking I can change the world.
Damn my heart, damn my eyes.
Neither has ever gotten anything remotely close to right.
My heart falls for those who are unavailable to me,
While my eyes see beauty everywhere I cannot touch.
Despite everything, I hold out hope.
The most inspiring and depressing human ideas.
Hope of a better tomorrow can bring about joy in the lifeless.
When that hope is finally abandoned, the most empty feelings replace it.
But my kin and I are not lost.
Reason to hope is all around,
The clouds are beginning to dissipate.
The sun may not shine tomorrow, but one day soon a new dawn shall come,
And I will be waiting on the nearest shore for a glimpse of the life I almost led.